Changed

I want to go back.

It has been months... longer than we were there, and now I know in my heart I want it. It's not just in my head anymore. They've dug their way down into my heart, and I will sacrifice for them more than they'll ever know. So much less than the greatest Sacrifice, and yet so much more than I've ever given before.

The doubts in my head and heart are silenced if but for this moment. I know He is sufficient for all of them and today, right now, that is enough. It will always be enough whether I am acknowledging it or not. Right now I have the euphoria of this decision to carry me. Later only Faith.

Eyeballs

Did you know?

A frog must close its eyes to swallow. When it does this the eyeballs are retracted to press against the roof of the mouth, helping to press food on down the gullet.

DiversaFact from Diversified Opthalmics Inc.

...that might explain why they have such huge eyeballs...

So considering eyeballs... mine feel tired... and I want a nap... and yet instead of going home and sleeping I need to stay here to help other people's eyeballs see clearly...

Money

I work my butt off all week so that I can make money.
I make money so that I can buy the things I need.
I buy things I need like gas to get to work, and food so that I don't pass out while I'm working.

Does this seem like a vicious cycle to anyone else?

Does anybody else feel like you're serving 'The Machine' rather than living Life?

Can I also just say, that when I spend the money on things I want and don't need for existence (money that I spent over 40 hours this week earning) I end up feeling guilty!!
I feel like time is just slipping through my fingers, and that even though I'm earning a paycheck for it... I'm missing out on life which is ultimately a pretty high price to pay

However... I am making this sacrifice now so that I can have the reward later of freedom from "The Machine"